I have not finished growing through this experience and likely won't for a while. But I wanted to share a couple of things this has taught me.
Number 1 - I lean too much on the other guy.
I'd never seen it before, now it's clear. Through out this amazing faith transition, I have looked for other voices to validate or support my feelings. I don't think this is bad, but it may have become to much of a crutch. What began as a tool to help my hurt heart has now become one of those electronic shopping carts. I sit, I don't move, I glide around. The reason this is so vital here and now, is that no where in LDS writing or speaking (I am looking at top brass talks, and books) is there any opposition to Callister's point of view.
You see I can find spoken words by Chieko Okazaki about Same Sex Attraction, and how we are to love them, I can point to the Mormon and Gays site and counter Elder Oaks with his own words. I can love the Book of Mormon my way, because of a line by Elder Jeffrey Holland in the PBS documentary. There is nothing I can point to for Callister's work.
This angered me, even more than his words, that anger taught me what the problem was - Leaning on the Other Guy. I don't agree with Callister and it's up to me to honor myself.
Number 2 - More and more the verse "The Worth of Souls is Great In The Site of God" is becoming my banner. I am getting h****fire mad that souls are the last thing we think of as a culture. I am seriously desirous to rent my coat, hoist it on a sword, ride around with held high and claim - For all the Souls Valued By God.
Number 3 - LDS Youth are awesome. I look at the youth and young adults around my ward and stake and they are cute, attractive, smart, driven, responsible, wonderful. This is the message we should send. Thank you for giving your all for our expectations. Thank you for living our dream, wearing our clothes, completing our personal progress, and serving our missions. Thanks for coming to earth.
I know they aren't perfect, I don't want them to get swollen heads, but seriously, if Callister has a problem he should ask to address Victoria Secret, or television broadcast stations. If that's your problem, go talk to the problem, leave our hard working, mortal teens and youth alone. They need love, cheering, and chances.
Okay, stopping. I swear there is a rational woman underneath all of this somewhere. I hope she returns soon. For everyone's sake.
"I stayed because it was God and Jesus Christ that I wanted to follow and be like, not individual human beings." Chieko Okazaki Dialogue interview
"I am coming to envision a new persona for the Church as humble followers of Jesus Christ....Joseph and his early followers came forth with lots of triumphalist rhetoric, but I think we need a new voice, one of humility, friendship and service. We should teach people to believe in God because it will soften their hearts and make them more willing to serve." - Richard Bushman