startpoor wrote:Hey FS, I just gave you temple advice on another thread but thought I should check out your life experience and see where you're coming from

I'm curious if there have been any new developments since joining here. Does your ward still see you as active? Have you been able to communicate with your wife more? It sounds like you're married to an understanding person, but even so, these things are tough.
SP, Thanks for the advice on the other thread!
I'm still really struggling right now.

Lots of family issues - some that are related to religion and orthodoxy, but others that are not. My DW and I are not united in our parenting styles and our relationship is on the rocks. We are trying to work things out with family and marriage counseling, but we have a long way to go still.
My ward still sees me as active. I attend church every week, even though I don't enjoy it very often and I wouldn't attend regularly if it were just up to me. I still have a calling, although it is much less demanding than the one I had before and I enjoy it. My beliefs are not orthodox anymore - they really haven't been for a long time, but I've tried to act as though they were. I'm really growing tired of not being authentic, but I fear that any changes in my outward actions toward the Church would upset my home life even more.
My DW is a very compassionate person, but with all the other things going on with our kids and other conflicts in our relationship, I can't talk with her about my own feelings. I'm trying to focus on the things that we do have in common and support her in any way that I can right now, just to try to have some peace at home.
That's where I'm at. I'm hopeful things will get better, but right now things are pretty bleak.
I know of no sign on the doors of our meetinghouses that says, “Your testimony must be this tall to enter.” Dieter F. Uchtdorf, October 2014