Assistant WML, 2nd C in EQ, 1st C In EQ, 1st C in EQ, 1st C EQ, 2nd C in Young Mens, EQ President, 2nd C in Bishopric, Bishop, WML, and now 2nd C in Sunday School. I am 36 years old and have never been without a calling in a presidency or WML since my first calling.
I had my faith crisis while serving as a Bishop. At the Almost 5 year point, I asked my SP to release me.... Trying to lead with Faith and carry the weight of the Ward was overwhelming.... I was burnt out. A week after my release my Bishop called me as WML and after a year as WML I again asked to be released as I was burnt out..... I mean picking myself off the floor and wanting to cry burn out.... I was immediately called as 2nd C in the Sunday School Presidency (which because of our ward dymanics will be an easy calling) and I love the SS President (he was one of my councelors when I was Bishop and he is complicated and nuanced in some ways and so the pressure would/will be miniscule.
My Bishopric approached me again this Sunday (Only been called to the SS for about 1 month) and wanted to extend to me a 2nd calling as Primary Activity Leader.
I had already explained that I am open to other callings but that 1.) I would be selective and 2.) should not involve primary or younger youth as I am not a patient teacher of young ones.
I asked for 24 hours to ponder and respond. I considered the calling and while I am not a fan of turning callings down, I am simply in a place where I am taking more control of what capacities I am used in and sent this as my reply.
I share this so that each of you know that I too am a Middle Way Mormon and while I am striving to "lead with faith" I run into the same issues many of you do. I think about, struggle, and get frustrated with the same things. While I come down ultimately in a different place than many of you I also hope you know that this is hard for me too.Dear Bishopric,
In my first 16 years in the Church I would of said yes in a heartbeat. I would have had fun and enjoyed such a calling. I am just not in that place right now. As I have said, I need to be very selective about callings in the near future. I have been burnt out for some time and need to be selective in how I am involved for a while. know that I love and appreciate each of you. I am complicated right now and apologize for that.
To give you a feel of what I am dealing with, if interested you can read this beginning on page 5 or 6 where it says
Beyond Stage Three: The Dark Night of the Soul
http://www.thebattleofarmageddon.com/st ... _faith.pdf
It describes my roller coaster pretty well
Thank you for your understanding. Again it is not that I would say no to every calling. I said yes quickly to serving with Bro. So&so. I also would likely say yes to others as well but I will for the near future be selective on how I commit myself.