I need to qualify 'completely satisfied' to say "satisfied enough". What would it take?
1. A testimony boosting experience that convinces me the church is all it says it is again. My experiences in the church have battered my testimony to the point I hang on to agnosticism in case it happens to be true at some point. At this point, TBM's would say "a wicked or adulterous generation seeketh a sign". I am not seeking a sign, but if God wants me to believe fully, I think I need my own Road to Damascus or other convincing experience if He chooses to give it. I haven't given up on Mormonism.
2. Time. I am wounded from the repeated abuse I've received from "members in good standing" and also church leaders. The thought of returning to the "member as unappreciated, neglected, unsupported church employee" model I have experienced continues to sicken me when I think of it. Time and reframing these past experiences would have to happen.The memories are still sharp, and although specific details have faded with time, the "hum" of the pain associated with the abuse is still deafening to me.
3. My fill of community and other service outside the church.
This part is odd. For years, I stayed in front-line positions in my career, even though I'm capable of leadership. Sometimes I refused opportunities to lead, other times, when I sought them, I was rejected.... It was a kind of angst for me, NOT to have been invited to take on this kind of role in the past when it was significant. So I was always thirsting for a different kind of leadership than I have experienced in the church or community. Recently, within the last six months, I was asked to take on a significant admin role, involving leadership to about 3 dozen people. It's been taxing, but rewarding. I feel way more relaxed now, at peace with my career, to the point further progression seems unnecessary for me. I feel like the lion who doesn't have to roar. He knows he can, based on my experiences in the last six months, and therefore, doesn't need to express himself further.
Well, after I have my fill of the leadership opportunities I never had throughout my life (including community service and paid leadership), I think this would encourage me to settle down to the church leadership experience again -- provided other factors above were allowed to materialize (#1, and #2).
There is one additional factor but I don't want to say it unless I invite life to make it happen.
That is what I think it would take. Notice how I didn't say anything that causes the church to change. If I re-engage, it will have to be with acceptance of the church as it is -- warts and all. This is because the core values/policies it holds that bother me are likely never to change in my lifetime. It will have to be on the strength of revitalized testimony, and the feeling that all leadership experiences have been explored and enjoyed.
The change will have to come from within.