Thanks for doing so. I think that enriches this forum...good, honest discourse. We don't have to try to only share positive stuff about the church. There is stuff that really bugs me sometimes too.
But we move forward, and find what works for us. I think...sometimes moving forward with honest criticism of the church and its leaders is healthy to help us feel like it isn't "us misfit toys" that are the problem. Let's call it like it is. There are problems at church, and how it makes us feel, and what others say.
There. I said it. That's me being honest too.
Now we move forward, and look for ways to live our lives in a way that makes our choices meaningful, and our life filled with what we want and need. We cannot expect to find the good at church if we blind ourselves to the bad. It all goes together...opposition in all things.
Honesty, not fake plastic smiles, is admirable. Keep it up. Others need to hear and learn from your experience as they lurk and read here.