My actual "crisis" was maybe 30 minutes? I went from realizing that I was very likely perceiving EVERYTHING incorrectly/incompletely due to my biological brain wiring - so that meant everything I thought I knew about anything I considered permanent (communication, God, the church, myself, the nature of existence, motherhood/parenting, etc) was now likely unreliable and flawed because my perception was inherently unreliable and flawed.LookingHard wrote: ↑12 Dec 2014, 10:55I find it interesting how many FC's go from at least close to TBM all the way to no God within a second. I actually stopped right after the church being true, but still no issue of if there was a God. I am not sure if that is because I live out in the mission field and have meet some people that are not LDS (in fact much better than the "average" LDS member) that I absolutely want to go where they are going after this life is over.
I am not trying to say anything less of those that also questioned if there was a God or not. I am more wondering why I didn't and others did. I guess that is a question I will have to put on the shelf. Hey - where did my shelf go? Oh, that is right, it broke and I have not gotten around to fixing it.
When I realized I was going to be rebuilding everything from the ground up, I thought "going to church is now going to be intolerable - but I am not ready to give it up right now because of my husband and my family - he is going to be SO MAD if I reject everything without trying to fix it/figure it out, I wonder if I can find some tips on how to deal with all this?" 20 keystrokes later, I found staylds.com and the rest is history...
Since then, I have learned a few things.
- I may perceive everything incompletely and have some ineffective or incorrect viewpoints - but now I know that so I can try to compensate.. and guess what- so does everyone else - and they take it less seriously than I do...
- That I am still the same crazy person I have always been - I just managed to hit a developmental milestone in a unique way - which if you know me is fairly typical Amy J.
- That part of a faith/identity transition is learning what and who is important you, and what you are going to do (if anything) about it.
- That your faith narrative is a re-evaluating/re-defining of your relationship with God and His relationship with you.
NOTE: Lived in California for 20+ years of my life and had a healthy skeptism (ok borderline disdain) for the Utah corridor once I was out of the MTC. I think there are good people in Utah as well as good people everywhere else, and based on who I am and the people I met who were the happiest in Utah, it sounded like it wouldn't be a good fit for me.