This is an important thing to add to your spiritual journey. You are allowed to have a faith crisis. You are ok to be bored at church. You are just fine to do the minimum in a calling. You are OK as you are...with all your doubts, feelings, and emotions.Curt Sunshine wrote: ↑17 Aug 2017, 09:47I have said here multiple times that if a leader calls me, they get me. They don't get the person they think I am; they get me.
Therefore, I do what I can do and what I am comfortable doing and what I feel won't hurt myself or my family. I will NOT prioritize a calling over myself or my family. I do what I feel I can.
If they don't like that, fine. They can release me. No hard feelings on my end.
Do what you can do. Accept that. Don't act based on others' expectations in a church calling. Be yourself.
Just don't risk your endorsement.
The church is there for you, not you for the church. The church rolls on with or without us.
I had a strong experience in the temple when God revealed this concept to my heart amid all my stressful life crap...I simply felt "you are ok, just as you are." I didn't need to do more, explain myself to my bishop or others... simply...it is fine to be the way I am right now.
Be still, and know God is there. That's important to accept on our heart.
You are doing just fine in your journey, as evidence by your thoughtful post and sincere desires.
Church is just church. Make of that experience what you will. Make it how you want it to be in your life for reasons you feel good about.
There is no wrong answer. You don't need approval of others. You need an endorsement and can make yourself sacrifice to get that...but in your own way. Own your religion.