How do you deal with Sunday School and Priesthood (or RS)? I get very uncomfortable being there because I don't "feel" the spirit. To me, it is just another class, the same as any school class.DarkJedi wrote:That was over 10 years ago, and I haven't gotten over that yet - but I have learned to cope without relying on those feelings. I still don't know how to discern spiritual promptings from just plain emotions and I don't know that I will in this lifetime. The old "if it's good then it's OK" advice doesn't work - I was doing good things and got a bad result.
I guess I missed this part in church.Heber13 wrote:What are your thoughts on the times when Joseph Smith had feelings and they were wrong? If he was pretty close to God and that happened, surely we would also have that happen to us. How does that make sense to you?
I understand that. Thanks!hawkgrrrl wrote:I have never found feelings and emotion to be very reliable for me. Others have better luck with it. I do tend to be an instinctive decision maker, but I just make connections quickly and come to conclusions - I don't do it based on feelings. In fact, I often have to remember to ask myself how I feel about something because logic has always been my go to, and it's not fallible either. What can I say? Raised on Star Trek, I guess. A little bit Kirk and a whole lot Spock.
Just reading the comments so far, is making me feel a tidbit better. I find myself listening to a lot of talk radio (yes, I'm a talk junkie), and some of that is the local religious talk radio. There are many times that what they are saying makes a whole lot more sense than things I learned in church. I have always been OK with that because even when I was younger I knew that other people have good answers. My parents listened to Zig Zigglar. Anyone have suggestions on Sunday School and Priesthood? I can barely make it through Sacrament, but that has always been the case since I was still wearing diapers.
I also refuse to teach any class or give talks in church. I have no problem saying no. My problem is that when asked this goes through my head:
Do I believe what I would be teaching?
No. (generally because I don't know what is in the lessons and I don't want to be caught off guard).
Should I fake it and teach the class?
Because my integrity says I do not teach anything I don't believe.
Once that goes through my head, I say no to any teaching request.
I sat through primary and whatever the class part is called with CTR-4 and played games because I didn't believe what was being taught and they "really" needed a teacher. So I sat in there and played games the whole time.
The last talk I gave in church was 1.25 minutes long (OK, I don't know the exact time, but it was short). I got up, introduced myself, talked about guns and computers (subjects I know very well), then sat down. To be fair though, I warned the person who asked me to talk that I won't talk on a subject I don't know anything about. They said "learn". I said - OK, you asked for it. The bishopric member had to fill up 20 minutes of time. I'm not sure if he was mad or not, but they never asked me again.
Don't get me wrong here, I don't feel bad or regret saying no to anything. What I wonder and have a hard time with is the through process, then wondering afterwards why do I not believe it and if I don't believe it why do I keep coming back to church. I know it stems back to the experience with CPS and the feelings, so I that is where I started with this discussion. I also continue because statistically children raised in a good church environment become better adjusted and good adults, so I force myself for my child. I would like to get back to the way I was, before then. Not the blind or just following the feelings person, but the person who mostly liked to attend church...... I think, or at least that makes the most sense to me... I dunno, I'm still on the fence on that one I guess.
Sorry for the ramblings there at the end. Like I said in my first post, I ain't a word smith.