Let's take this piece by piece. "Trying to think back, why did I want to return? I don't know." (silence) You don't know?? Let me suggest several reasons why you might leave it again. To do that, I'll use subquotes from your main quote.Trying to think back, why did I want to return? I don't know. It was certainly partly because of my family. It was partly because I had come to a place where I felt I had gained a new understanding of the Gospel/Church relationship and actually believed in God (just not in the same way I perceive most Mormons do). It was partly because I did have some yearning for social interaction with people I know and like.
1. " It was certainly partly because of my family."
Well, it's true that church activity (any church, for that matter) can be strengthening to a family, but it's really not a sufficient reason to join a church, especially, the true one. The Lord expects a lot of those people.
2. "I had come to a place where I felt I had gained a new understanding of the Gospel/Church relationship."
As you know, in the church we have an adult Sunday school called Gospel Doctrine. You will note that it wasn't named Church Doctrine but GOSPEL Doctrine. If you remember, some decades ago, the Church sent out a monthly newsletter, to the unit leaders, called the Church Bulletin. It contained information for the units and every once in a while instructions on changes in the Church Handbook. Within time the resultant Handbook wouldn't look much like the original handbook anymore. I' m not putting that down. Procedures do change and the Church tries to accommodate them. As a result, CHURCH doctrine can change with the wind direction. Than the leaders started to base the things they said, in the handbook, according to gospel doctrine and they result was truly amazing. Since then there have been very much fewer changes. We can consider Gospel doctrine as Gibraltar doctrine. It changes for nothing!
I'm not terribly concerned what the Church doctrine is. But I am concerned about understanding what Gospel doctrine is. If the Church says that THIS is doctrine and I say no, THAT is doctrine and the Church says that I must not say THAT in a Church setting, then I won't. But in the next breath I would ask them if they can show me where, they think, I have misunderstood the scriptures. If they can, that's great. If they can't, I still won't say THAT in a Church setting, but I don't think I would ever be able to believe it.
So, what about the truthfulness of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. It hasn't even been phased. There is one doctrine taught in the scriptures that I, probably, depend on more than anything else. I'll call it the doctrine of priesthood keys. There are 15 men in the Church that hold all of them and one of those men is the reason the others even have them. Now I think I've said that right. Look that up for sure. I just ran into a lazy streak. Dark Jedi! If God has told you nothing, then that is exactly what you know----Nothing! And the Church won't be able to help to much. How do I know about the keys? God told me. And He also told me they are vitally important.
To me, leaving the Church would be insane.
3.(I)" actually believed in God (just not in the same way I perceive most Mormons do)."
Be careful. So far, you haven't said anything about what God HAS told you let alone what He's told you about what most Mormons believe about God.
4. " It was partly because I did have some yearning for social interaction with people I know and like."
I, also, know and like the people of my unit but when it comes to a knowledge and understanding of gospel doctrine, I don't think they know what they are talking about. I could walk out and never come back and, ALMOST, never miss them. But many, many of them do know the important stuff - how to live it. That I would miss. They are a strength to me. God knows that and He knows that I know that.
The leaders could throw me out of the Church if they wanted to. They have the authourity. But on my own, I hang on for dear life. I know to much to leave.
Dark Jedi, may God be with you.