jmb275 wrote:There is a tendency in Mormonism (at least I think so) to be constantly worrying about being obedient to obtain Exaltation, such that we miss the beauty of this life.
Good observation JMB, I think I fell into that...not all at once, but slowly over time as I continued to try to progress and help my family to progress. I realized how much further I need to go from where I want to be, and then it got me very impatient with small little errors I was making, and pressure to be a better home teacher, better scripture scholar, better (on and on). When that turned to a negative image of myself, I realized I had gone too far.
Taking a break to step back, and enjoy sunrises and nature and some beauties of this world, beauties of the here and now and mortality and the wonderful experience I am having now, then I could return to the LDS community and have more patience and more tolerance of new ideas without so much fear of the next life and if I'm "making the cut".
The beauty of the gospel is that the quest for perfection is never ending. You don't just get baptized and "you're saved" - it is an ongoing process to endure to the end by increasing knowledge and experience and live the Christ-like way...which provides the experience in mortality that is such a blessing. Trying to figure out the meaning of all the symbolism and requirements is the epiphany for me.