Thank you for sharing this. We all (as humans) have so much in common that we should be able to see reflections of ourselves in all of of fellow beings. OTOH, our uniqueness (both in being and in experiences) and means that in some ways we are completely alone.Daughter1 wrote: ↑11 Apr 2019, 15:32Beach, I wasn't emotionally impacted by the POX or its reversal as many others here. But I do relate to the feeling that you don't belong and there is no one who really understands. In my life, my mom, my dad, and one of my closest friends have all gone through a faith transition. Each one has a different approach to it, a different reaction to it, and a different set of catalysts. Mine is unique as well. And I feel frustration and isolation when I realize that whether I'm talking to someone fully orthodox, someone who has experienced a faith crisis, or someone who isn't a member, I cannot fully express what I am feeling.
I'm learning that it's ok. I'm learning to cherish that my feelings are things only God and Christ will ever comprehend accurately. And that is how I manage to come back. After my realization that I wasn't going to receive the promised witness of the BoM, I felt a bit betrayed. My prayers have become less consistent. But whenever I kneel to pray, I am reminded that God does know how I feel. And He is the only one who does. So I will always return to prayer.
God knows how you feel. I don't, and I'm sorry I cannot empathize fully. But He can. Your pain, both at the inception and reversal of the policy are things He knows.
Like you, I do believe that God can feel what I feel. Believing that God likewise does this for all humans everywhere helps me to be more empathetic towards others. IOW the same God that cries for my pain also cries for theirs.